Annies Writings

 Back in 2020,we stepped into 2021 with hope in our eyes and plans to move forward to make it the best year. But sadly, none of us have made it 'coz of the pandemic, some stress, anxiety and emotional wear. For me, 2021 was an year of combination of happy and sad, smile and tears, pain and gain. Every morning, I woke up to hearing a sad news.I lost my favourite people to COVID. And one day, I was shown covid symptoms and isolated. It was hard for me to pass. Spent many sleepless nights, fought many fears and silent battles, challenged by physical sickness, confused in choosing career, faced hardships in every move, some broken trusts I'm not ready to take, some promises turned to sorries.suffered and depressed so much physically and mentally.  Every step I took thrown stones on me. Every turn I took wished me failure but still I made it and moved even stronger than them. Above all, I'm grateful for where this year brought me and what this year taught me. With God by my side...

 SLEEP. How many days it has been you slept peacefully? One week? One month? or not at all? But why? Have you ever think what's disturbing you to have  a good sleep? Are that the the unending thoughts of your past? The feelings of the present? The fear of the future? Lack of peace? or what else? See, your mind works all the day continuously.Why can't you give it permission to rest atleast in the sleep time? Why? Don't let your thoughts, feelings, failures rule your life during the night. Let go of them. Night is a chance to be thankful for the sustainability, shelter and the protection you've that day; to be grateful for experiencing that day; to be open to the light and healing. Don't loose sleep over petty things. Don't war with your mind during nights. It is a time to relax, time to heal,time to shine, time to grow, time to understand and love who you're.Awake to new promises, new hope, new day and new rays knowing that you will pass the pain, overcome th...

 I HOPE. I hope you are not the same as you were all those past years, not that crying child, not that wounded soul, not that shadowed person, not that left alone person, and mostly not that scared and fearful person. I hope you've learnt, you've grown and you've changed. I hope you've learnt more of liking and loving yourself. I hope you've breathed in the unknowns about you. I hope you've fought and overcome the darkness leading a head highing life. I hope you've come so far making the most beautiful of your life. ~Annie Deborah~

 BEHIND THE SMILE. Behind her happiest smile were a thousand deepest secrets. Behind her prettiest smile were a million unsaid feelings. Behind her happiest smile were a thousand different thoughts. Behind her prettiest smile were a million many fears. Behind her smile was a story you would never understand and you never know about. You think you know her, you think she's your best friend, you think she's close to your heart, but you really have no idea.She's an Eccedentesiast. ~Annie Deborah ~ ~Annie Deborah~

 SELF LOVE. You have to choose yourself even when others refuse to. You have to love yourself even when others reject you. No matter if you're are rejected, unloved, had a bad past, sustaining the depression or the other things that ruining you. Stop there! Have time for yourself. Forgive your past completely. Accept yourself as a whole. Value yourself above all. Love yourself like you love others. Care yourself like you care others. Talk to yourself like someone you love. Trust yourself regardless of peoples voice. Step out stronger than you are before. Be proud of your change and not be ashamed of how people see you with the same old eyes. ~Annie Deborah ~

 I AM NOT. I am not ill but I'm not fine either. I am not sad but I'm not happy either. I am not crying but I'm not smiling either. I am not heavy but I'm not light either. I am not empty but I'm not full either. I am not stopping but I'm not moving on either. I am not incomplete but I'm not whole either. I am not dead but I'm not living either. I'm just living my presence but dead inside. ~Annie Deborah~